Spirituality, a call from a friend, never stop learning

Sitting here in the quiet, Enya playing in the background, I am still at peace. This time it is from taking a breath.

I discussed with Bob my spirituality and beliefs. I have been investigating the church the way I should have before I was baptized. And I have found fault. Tonight when I brought it up again he told me that he would rather have me divorce him than have me doing what I am doing.

I can't do that to him. I will worship God Almighty with every ounce of my soul, mind, might and strength. I have some unresolved issues concerning the church, but it is my lifestyle, my friends, support group, and is a place I like being.

So much for my new life.

Yet this is still "new" I have spoken my piece to those who needed to know and I stepped back and took a breath. The rescusitation worked. There have been times that I have not liked what Bob has done. And he has stopped becuse it made me uncomfortable. I know the church has its faults, but which church doesn't? I believe Christ to be my personal Savior and intercessor with my Heavenly Father. There are many things I don't like about church, but I feel better now.

I got a call from a friend of mine from Iowa today and she was concerned about me and my spirituality. She had a lot of wisdom and I did listen. Funny, that is not like me. I feel better, have a long way to go in my spiritual progression. I can try all I want, everyday, every moment to be perfect and one hour into it I will be in need of repentance, so I know that Christ's atonement for my sins must have been unbearable, for he took on ALL of our sins. We show respect for him by doing the things we saw him do. Faith without good works is dead, but only through the name of Jesus Christ are we saved. Where I go from here, I am not worried about, what the mansion looks like or who will be my neighbors. I just want to be what God wants me to be. That has never changed.

My heart is lighter now. My husband is incredibly faithful to his beliefs and that inspired me. I still have more reading and research to do, I must never stop learning.