Happy Valentine's day you're being audited

We are being Audited. Happy Valentine's Day. Actually Bob found out about it a couple months ago but he didn't want to upset me, so he has been dealing with it.
I HAAVE had a huge amount of personal stuff on my mind.

We got our monthly statement for a Visa credit card with a balance of $2,456.93. And we are going to pay it off tomorrow!!!! The minimum payment is $55. So we will take that and add it to the other bills we have paid and head on to the next debt. This is exciting for me! I may regret it due to the fact that we are being audited..but we'll cross that bridge when we come to it.

I love not using the check book. I like the money envelope system. It really makes it "real" when you see the amount in your hands dwindle. I guess Obama has lived on a credit card system his entire life and can't see what real money looks like and has no concept of trying to live within a budget. I would be easier on him but he is dealing with America's money, not his own.

This WAS a nice valentine's day! Bob brought me tulips, a sheep, a note pad and a beautiful card. I gave him a card from me and one from Missy. She was very proud of it! A neighbor lady came over while I was in my jammies (I seem to live in them) and while I was doing Zumba. I was sweating in my pjs while she handed me a plate of homemade frosted sugar cookies! I finally had two. So that pretty much shot the Zumba calorie burning.

I stayed home and exercised so I could save some money on gas. Tomorrow I go to see my Dr. in Bloomington. Lots of things to discuss. I had a phone conversation with my doctor in Iowa City, Iowa on the 7th. Was so happy to talk with her. I am making some major changes in my life and she is my cheerleader. I'm stepping away from some things that are so ingrained in my life I don't know what my life is going to be like with my husband or my friends. I mentioned something to my husband on a walk the other day and he acted like he never heard a word I said. The things he has said to me are cutting and will have to stop. He may not agree with my choices, but if he wants to keep living with me, some things will have to change. For better or worse, in sickness or in health. If he wants to attribute my "behavior" to sickness, I won't care. It is not due to sickness, it is due to a core belief. I know it is going to hurt some people. But I have to be honest with myself.

I am doing pretty well mentally. It has been a full year since my last hospitalization. I had lost 20 pounds in a month while I was trying a new treatment and trying to remodel the kitchen and upstairs bathroom on my own with some help from some friends from church. I think my mental state has been really good, and I'm seeing my doctor tomorrow to see what he has to say. I talked with my doctor in Iowa City, Iowa on the 7th and she is my cheerleader in what changes I am making in my life. After talking with her she said she was going to go to the Deluxe pastry shop in Iowa City and have a piece of cake in my honor. It is a tremendous load off, but how do I say what I want to say to people? It is really none of their business, but it is an integral part of my life. I've talked with my bishop and I need to talk to him further. He is concerned but not worried.

Anyway. It is good working toward our financial goals. There is yet many things my husband and I find in common. I think of him as someone so much more grown up than I am. I feel I have lost 30 years of my life wherein I could have been pursuing other things in my life than what has been my entire existence.

This is too deep. if anyone reads this who has any idea what I am talking about, don't worry about me please. Things will work out.

Take care and happy valentine's day.