Normal Day, Planting Flowers & Cleaning

I still have my heavy duty knee pads on from planting flowers. I'm having a very good day. Missed my opportunity to go to the Y. I was up early enough I just found other things to do.

I had to go to the bank and pick up our new checks so I can pay bills. Feeling free from anxiety. I think it is my mind set concerning my Faith. I am so comfortable with my beliefs now I don't feel like a fraud. What else? Made the bed, opened the windows, Killed the TV (I wanted to watch a few episodes of 'The Office' but figured out how to revive it.) I uploaded several pictures to my facebook profile of the house in summer.

I was going to mow but grass is too high and the ground too wet again and had to farm it out to a guy that does that as a business. I feel so hopeful for the house. I still need to stage it. Yesterday I went to Lowes and spent about $100 on plants and flowers. We have some beautiful perennials that accent the house, but we have a flower ring around our bird bath so I planted some creeping phlox, columbine, hostas and mini daisies. The bird bath I scrubbed clean and when all was dry I sprayed it lightly with white spray paint. Looks naturally aged, just not horrendously aged.

Today I am still going to exercise by running up and down my stairs for a half hour. I have some free weights and I'll work out with those too. I'm staying home so I can be here when the lawn care guy is here. I have been watching my calories. I have an appetite again and it is not helping me keep the weight off, so I am writing it all down.

Bob is looking at his schedule to see if he can take a couple vacation days to drive with me out to Colorado to handle my mom's final things since she passed away. I am doing well right now, but sometimes things or people trigger me. The stuff is in my brother's house which used to be my moms. I get triggered around my brother. So I really need Bob to come with me. We can't make any decisions about what to do with the stuff if I don't know what is there.

My brother is not doing too good. Had a recent angiogram and doctors are going to do a vein re-route on one of his legs. He has diabetes and it is not totally under control. I feel sad for him, my tumultuous life is like a trip to the park beside his.

You know in the movie "What About Bob?" (which I ask myself that everyday...)Bill Murray yells from a boat he is strapped to that, "I'm a sailor, I'm a sailor, I'm sailing!" Today I found out that I like planting flowers and taking care of them. I actually talk to the plants. I have never done that, people who do that are...eccentric...so now I fit right in. I felt like calling one of my friends and saying, "I'm gardening! I'm a gardener! I'm gardening! When I was 60 pounds heavier bending and kneeling was really hard, hard to breathe and tough to move around. So today when I got in the moist earth I didn't hurt anywhere. That was a relief.

Not really much to say here. That makes me so happy. I'm going to take a break and go read Jane Eyre. This is one of my better days. I'll take it! Have a good day!