Reading, Pictures and a Schedule

Another beautiful day. I sat out on our porch swing having biscotti and hot cocoa. Took some pictures. I have decided to take my camera everywhere I go. The point of taking pictures is to help me identify the beauty in everyday life and to appreciate each day. Then as I look back at them I will see more good days than bad.

I've been having trouble with my memory. I think it is from Ambien. I going to try going without it. I usually fall asleep reading. Even if it is an exciting tale, I can only read for so long. One memory I have that is good is reading with my husband in the evening. Being apart I think this one pasttime is one I miss most, aside from the ache I feel to be held.

Reading out loud? I know, some might consider that a snoozefest. We purposely enclosed our living room and banished the TV to a room upstairs so we could use the space for visiting people and for reading and playing games. The longest I have ever read aloud was eight hours...on the road to Colorado. My throat got sore, but it was a great book. Can't remember now what it was, but most likely a Christian-based novel.

Reading helps quell my depressive feelings. Thank you God for this day and for feeling so good. I must acknowledge my Father in Heaven in the way I am feeling today.

My mind is going in many directions right now. Not manic, just "normal-me". Last night I took a nice soak in our claw-foot tub, put on my jammies and went to bed with, I have to say, a pretty sorry excuse for a book. I would love to re-write it, just for fun and add in a few adjectives. But life is too short. I have my own book to write. I think I'll go to the library today, turn it in with my other books and hopefully find a good one. I have learned that I do best with a schedule. My everyday list so that I can see a beginning and an end to tasks, a reminder that whatever depression I might feel, it is temporary just as is everything else. And reading is a part of my list. I need several things from which to choose as a NOW activity that doesn't involve a credit card.

I'm doing better now that I'm adjusting to Bob being gone. My physical illness is gone, the house is almost finished, and I have the opportunity to go visit Bob whenever I want. I'm happy with the med change. I'm working toward several months of well-being so I can take EMPower supplements again. It is easy waiting for the other shoe to drop, but I am feeling fine as of today. In a while I will go and do my meditation, take some more boxes to the garage and clean in general. Dishes. Why did I let that get out of control? Oh well, it is something to do. As my grandmas used to say when we would come to visit, "Same old decorations."

The picture of the day is of our Hostas near the house. I just love their varigated colors. It looks like someone took a paint brust to them.

On the road to wellness...you have a good day too!