Feeling Overwhelmed

Today I am still fighting illness. I'm hurting and feel overwhelmed. I have been fighting this illness for more than a week now and am tired. I feel overwhelmed because there is so much to do in the house to get it ready to sell.

Tomorrow part of our upstairs bathroom floor is being taken up to fix a leak. The large claw-foot tub and toilet will be removed ready for new flooring. Before the flooring goes in I need to paint and put up a photo wall mural of a view of Santorini Greece. I know that it will be gorgeous in the end and I need to remember that only so much can be done in a day. My daughter and her fiance will be here to help, my husband and a good friend who does house repairs. I shouldn't feel that it is all on my shoulders, but I am the one who has to live in it for now.

Due to the length of this illness, something I have never had before and so far having been given three different diagnoses and feeling overwhelmed does not help my frame of mind. I have a fear of the unknown. I'm worried about the possibility of going into the hospital and not being able to take my supplements. I called my psychiatrist's office and asked him to write something up in case of emergency, but was told that he really couldn't do that. What I am doing in reducing medications is pretty much on my own. If for whatever reason I end up in the hospital, I will need to have my medications at dosages that can easily be dispensed. My psychiatrist said that If that were to happen the hospital could give him a call and he would tell them about the supplements. I can't afford to go backwards.

Over the past two years I have lost 65 pounds and have been very healthy. I'm diabetic and that is completely under control. My cholesterol, triglycerides and everything taken in a CBC are all at healthy levels. I usually go to the Y every day but haven't gone for well over a week. I hope this illness goes away soon.

Otherwise, I have been doing well on the supplements. I'm still amazed that I have been able to reduce my meds with very few noticable side effects. The side effects that I have had have been feeling sluggish, slight anxiety and feeling like there is lead coursing through my veins.

This is not very exciting, just fulfilling my committment to recording my progress. Hopefully tomorrow will be better. Have a good day